I know I’m only working the expo, it’s not like I’m competing. But I don’t feel like I am where I should be. My diet is SLIPPING and slipping often. I feel good about my body, I’m in the best shape of my life for heaven’s sake, but I just don’t feel good enough, for a bodybuilding competition of this magnitude. Everyone is going to be there. EVERYONE. Everyone I look up to, admire, drool over, stalk, adore—they’re all going to be there!
I feel like there are so many opportunities for me to find there, marketing myself, looking my best, finding gigs for modeling or sponsorships, anything—but I’m not prepared and now suddenly there’s no TIME.
I haven’t been taking it seriously enough, and now it’s finally hit me and I’m freaking out.
My workouts have been spot on, it’s just my nutrition that is not on point and I’m not even sure 22 days of consistency will get me to my desired state.
All I can do is it give it my all from this point forward, and hope that this epiphany is enough to kick my ass into gear!
The pressure is on and I am feeling it. And I feel like stress just makes fat loss that much harder…
It’s all good.
It’s going to be fine.
This article is my current inspiration. Wish me luck.
It’s important to make goals specific! Rather than ‘be more organized’—decide HOW to be more organized. (This I learned when my boyfriend was reading over my shoulder and demanded I specify. He knows me well.)
Get back from Europe Friday night. Come Saturday—it’s ON. :) Last year was incredible—can’t wait to make this one even better!!